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Lavender and Crow Feather

by Billy Ennis Leonard

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1.
Intro 02:23
2.
Urn 04:38
They drew the crosses on your urn to earn the trust of god time will darn the tattered heart at least that's what we've been taught we'd wear that sermon like a serpent tight around our necks we woke and pressed our mourning eyes into each others hands you're goddamn right I wish that night I'd say goodbye We placed the gravel on your grave to grieve the trust of god time will wear the strongest heart at least that's what we've been taught we'd wear that funeral like a muzzle tight around our lungs we wept and sand our aching songs into each others palms you're goddamn right i wish that night i'd said goodbye
3.
Another lover on the run Breaking down in washington Punching through the pouring rain Lightning on the mountain range I try to stop my shaking hands From turning me around again Lavender and crow feather Won't you help Me get over this old state line Cause i'm dieing for a new State of mind Somewhere out in idaho With a broken radio Leaning on the steering wheel Not knowing where i'm going still I tell myself another joke And light myself another smoke Lavender and crow feather Won't you help Me get over this old state line Cause i'm dieing for a new State of mind
4.
Mama she danced and she danced and she danced American mouths at the palms Of her hands and she fed She fed them her heart And she fed them her lungs She fed them her body And she fed them her sons So they fled They fled from their fathers They fled from their homes They fled from the women That they think they still love But they don't Fledglings on the wind Prayers learning sin Lovers round the bend Addicts on the mend Papa he tried and he tried and he tried American breath at the back Of his neck so he lied He lied from his heart And he lied from his lungs He lied from his body And he lied to his sons So the fled They fled from their mother They fled from their homes They fled from the women That they thought they would trust but they dont Fledglings on the wind Prayers Learning sin Lovers round the bend Addicts on the mend Mama she danced she danced and she dance American mouths at the palms of her hand and she fed
5.
Maybe I should have seen it coming Maybe it was a sign or something Not really sure what i was thinking When i brought you those flowers From my grandfathers funeral And you danced In the doorway of your mother's home A bouquet of omens in your hands And oh it's the strangest thing the way we display our feelings when we feel excepted and believed And maybe you should have seen it coming Not really sure what you were thinking But was it really that surprising When I left you the message That i wouldn't be back In the doorway of my brothers home A conjuring of omens in my head And oh its the strangest thing They way displace our feelings When we feel abandoned and betrayed
6.
I Love Lucy 05:27
Well your mother always warned you To be weary of the boys She said don't ever let them Treat you like a door But they knocked you up And they slammed you shut Now you're pulling the locks And you're closed for good And just like the clock You'll raise your children in your arms And you'll teach them that troubles Just like seasons are bound to come And you'll give them all the time And you'll watch them hurry up And they may see you spinning But they'll never ever see you stop You can hear the old floor boards Well they sound just like your bones Yeah they're creaking from the weight Of trying to hold up this home And there's knots all down your back And your thoughts are all pressure cracked And you may lay down But you'll never let them see you bend Oh and just like the curtains You will lean into the pain And you'll stay there a while As if it's your only friend And you'll flutter with the wind And you'll soak in all the rain And you may crack open But you'll never let the light out again Oh and just like the show You live in black and white You either love or you don't You're either living or you die Did it take too long to see Or were you right where you wanted to be When you passed to the sound Of I love Lucy
7.
Just Incase 03:36
Sometimes I wonder where you've been And did your train ever make it round the bend And are there peso's in your eyes Or are you somewhere out in Arizona getting high And what'd you think you could do with bloodhounds chasing after you Ever since you've been out on the lamb And well I hope that you still Keep my dagger in your boot Just incase shit hits the fan Sometimes I wonder how you are well you went running but did you make it very far And did they catch you at the line or are you in Texas drinking whiskey like your dying Are you still wild or did you tame And do they call you by your name Or is it sweetheart and babe And you know that I still Keep your pistol on my belt Just incase shit goes to hell Sometimes I wonder what it was That took us over and possessed the both of us Did you really need to go Shoot out all the stars in New Mexico What did I think you could do With bloodhounds chasing after you Ever since you've been out on the lamb And well I hope that you still Keep my dagger in your boot Just incase shit hits the fan Are you still wild or did you tame And do they call you by your name Or is it sweetheart and babe And you know that I still Keep your pistol on my belt Just incase shit goes to hell
8.
Last night I got a phone call from my ma And just like any normal thing a mother would ask of her son She said i need a ride to the mental institution Cause I just don't want to live anymore No i just don't want to live anymore And i can't live anymore And they said ma'm can you prove That you want to die Oh ma'm can you prove that you want to die oh lease prove to us that you want to die Last night I got a phone call from my ma And just like any normal conversation A mother would have with her son She said yesterday I smoked heroin Cause i just don't want to feel anymore No I just don't want to feel anymore And i can't feel anymore And they said ma'm Can you prove That you want to die Oh ma'm can you prove That you want to die Oh please prove to us That you want to die Last night I watched my mom soak her hands In nail polish remover And that's the day she taught me about Self esteem and self doubt She said why should an ugly women Have beautiful nails Oh why should an ugly women have Beautiful nails And they said ma'm can you prove That you want to die Oh ma'm can you prove that you want to die Oh please prove to us That you want to die
9.
Well i think i've finally shed it from my skin All that guilt i had for leaving My family and friends I never thought that i would be gone for so long But i could feel the tugging of the wind Ever since i was young We're all writing and righting In the books of us If you don't turn the page You'll never know what comes And we're all needing and kneading At these roads of ours If you don't wear the soul You'll never reach the stars And there are times that I feel I need to stop But if the mountain were smooth You'd never make it to the top I guess I can only say it in a song Tell my father I forgive him Tell my mother I was wrong We're all toeing and towing Around these pains of ours If you don't lick your wounds They'll all turn to scars And we're all taleing and tailing Behind the lies of us If you don't tell the truth You'll never learn to trust We're all Heeling and Healing At the hearts of us If you don't let it break You'll never learn to love We're all preying and praying On the words of us If you don't bite your tongue You'll never learn to cuss
10.
Desperado 05:14
You were born just like a black spruce Your mother weeping, cracked, and charred And your father was a fire He never knew quite when to stop But when the branch breaks oh the babe falls And you could feel that in the cradle And you can hear it in your ears now Oh desperado Oh desperado You were tendered by your brother He was right, and weak, and warm And he did his best to show you That bad is good in different forms But when the branch breaks oh the babe falls And you could feel that in the cradle And you can hear it in your ears now Oh desperado Oh desperado But when the branch breaks oh the babe falls And you could feel that in the cradle And you can hear it in your ears now Oh desperado Oh desperado Oh desperado Oh desperado

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released July 3, 2020

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Hey there, my name is Billy Ennis Leonard, I currently reside in Portland, OR for now. Thank you for taking the time to look into my music and listen.

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